I Haven't Found It Yet

My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.  
When can I go and meet with God?
- Psalm 42:2 -

This song has been playing way
 in the back of my head for awhile.  

For years I've had these recurring dreams.  I'm looking for something that I can't find.  A yearning, a search for an illusive person, unknown place, or misplaced thing that I can't quite get my hands on.  A lost schedule.  An assigned classroom.  A missed appointment.  A nearby bathroom.  A forgotten gathering.  A nebulous destination.

I feel frustration or disappointment, embarrassment or fear.  And then I wake, bewildered and spent.


It recently dawned on me {no pun intended} what I'm looking for.  Heaven.

Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me.  In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you.  I go to prepare a place for you.  And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also.  And whither I go ye know, and the way ye know.
- John 14:1-4

We haven't found what we're yearning for, have we.  The search might be playing out through endless striving for money or accomplishments or accolades.  We drain our relationships dry with our endless neediness hoping that someone or some object or goal will fill that promised hope.

Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is dismantled, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands.  For in this tent we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling.
- 2 Corinthians 5:1-2

As we finally grasp what we're really looking for, the peaceful satisfaction of His presence in the midst of earthly hardships will give us a hopeful, joyous anticipation for what lies ahead.

Come quickly, Lord Jesus.